Sunday, August 26, 2007
Grateful and Guilty?
I live in a dream world. My 'Simple Kind of Life' is good, and I almost feel guilty about it, sometimes.
Perspective is a funny thing, funny in that it is strange, mostly because it is so relative.
I met with two good friends this week. One has recently started dealing with an eating disorder. The other had dealt with cancer recently, and several resulting surgeries.
And the list goes on, as I'm sure it does for most people, if not in their own lives, then in their closest satellite relationships.
Someone close to me has been dealing with infertility. Another close friend is sandwiched between a young child with frightening health problems and an ailing step-parent.
And what problems do I complain about? I have to let go of my '94 Saturn because it has gone beyond piece-of-crap status. I don't know how much longer my scooter will hold out, and then--gasp!--I might have to ride the bus to work and back.
In other words, I have no right to complain.
So, this is my prayer, and it has been for quite some time, now:
God, please help me not to waste my space on this planet. Please help me to be of some use to others, in realistic ways, both tangible and intangible.
Many people have been very kind to me, my entire life. I don't always remember that, especially when I'm wasting time feeling sorry for myself. I try to practice remembering more often, because it helps me to be kind to other people.
"Life is not fair. But sometimes, life is not fair in your favor."
~ Peter Varvel