Sunday, May 10, 2009
I Could Be Your Daddy
I am 43 years old now. In the past year, I've found myself looking at 18-year-old and 19-year-old boys more.
No, not like that.
I am now the same age my father was when I was a freshman in college. Holy crap! I could have a college-age kid by now!
Last year I met someone who could very well be like my son. He was the grandson of my aunt's friends and, yes, he was 18. Like me, he had a Japanese mother and a Caucasian father. Conversation with him was easy as we talked about our respective times in Japan and our mutual interest in creative writing.
And I felt protective toward this young man, even if it was more in a brotherly way than in a parental way. Perhaps it was just a temporary transference of feeling protective over my own inner youth? How much more parenting am I going to feel I need to do for myself?
For the rest of my life?
My paternal grandmother was 43 when I was a 1-year-old baby. I could be a grandfather by now. HOLY CRAP!
(the photo above is me at about 18 years old, summer of 1984)