Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Peace and Protection
I am feeling wonderfully peaceful, as well as protected. Even if it is only temporary - even if it's all just an illusion - I am fully embracing the feeling and being as wholly grateful as I can be.
I am turning 44 this weekend, and I'm feeling pretty darn good about it.
I am taking Friday off from work, so tomorrow will be kind of like Christmas Eve in a way, in the joyful anticipation of it all. It will be a busy and fun weekend.
What do I want to do? I want to see the new, re-imagined version of Nightmare on Elm Street. Seriously! We'll see if there's time.
Going to see all of the Freddy Krueger movies is a tradition for BFF Kathy and me. But this was before her children, ages 7 and 5, were born. I'll be spending Friday with the three of them, so I probably shouldn't count on seeing this latest Freddy movie with Kathy, at least, not during the day. I'm sure we'll all have fun, as usual, no matter what we end up doing.
On Saturday, I get to see two shows! As an early Mother's Day present Domestic Partner and I will be taking my mom to see a live concert matinee of Miss Saigon. In the evening, Kathy will join me to see a dear friend perform the lead in a national touring production of Chicago. This will be my third time seeing her perform the role of Velma Kelly - and I'm looking forward to it!
Tonight, I took the dogs out to the front yard and driveway, as part of our normal evening routine before bedtime. Post-rain winds were blowing tufts of clouds across a clear sky glowing with the last of the twilight. I saw the exceptionally bright star again, the one that seems to hover above our front yard's tall hibiscus bush and near the bare branches of the trees in the DMV parking lot next door (maybe it's a planet?).
The star makes me think of Caesar the pug, as if he is an angel watching me, as if he is the reason my life is so peaceful and protected because my love for him continues, even though he's been gone more than four years now.
I know that the good times don't always last, just as the bad times never do. But I am happy to relish all the good things while they are here: a great partner, cozy and cuddly pets, a good job, a stable home, reliable transportation, good friends, family, and good health.
For my birthday, I want YOU to enjoy the feelings of peace and protection in your own life, too, as much as can be expected.
Thank you for reading.